‘If my mind is not settled toward God as the author of it all, and if I’m not putting him first, I might as well quit. It will all be in vain, it won’t bring me any peace, and the true battle is being lost.’
I find this quote really challenging, I have now been well for a couple of months (more on that here) and I ashamed to admit that I am often spending less quality time with God than when I was chronically ill. The reason for this is that my days have become a lot busier and my capacity has increased. This means that whereas before I had to depend on God to physically get through my day, now I can do a lot of things in my own strength. It is a mistake for me not to put God first, I need to focus my attention on him BEFORE I run around and do things. I also need to give him my best time in the day (more on that here).
When I move my focus from God, I also lose my peace, I need to be drawing strength and wisdom daily from his Word which is alive and is sharper than a double edge sword (Hebrews 4:12). After all, God’s ways and thoughts are higher than mine (Isaiah 55:9) so I would be very foolish to rely on my far inferior wisdom. As it says in Proverbs 21:30: ‘there is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord.’ I need to remind myself that it is not about the quantity of the Bible that I read but about thinking on it, letting it shape and influence me. It would be better to read a couple of verses and meditate on them than to read/listen to several chapters and give it only part of my attention.
In addition to prioritising the Bible I also want to put God first by praying more often. I want to pause and pray (even if only for a few seconds) before rushing in to fix something or before I make a decision. As 1 Chronicles 16:11 says: ‘look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.’ I am going to write more next week on the topic of growing in prayer.
Lord, I’m sorry for when I do not put you first in my life, please help me to do this. I want you to be involved in the details of my day-to-day life. I want to draw strength and wisdom from your Word and from time in fellowship with with you. Amen.